A Love Song for Another Life

You don't want love
I know this but here I am
And I get lost
In those brown eyes, despite the fact that...

I don't love you
I have no idea why I'm here
This might not end well
But I can't seem to walk away

Maybe it's the alcohol
But all I want is you
I know your name
But this is the first time I've met you
I may regret tomorrow
But tonight let's forget the world.

Years go by
I see you from time to time
Same brown eyes
And same trembling feelings inside...

I still don't love you
But you sure make me blush
It's not yet over
But for now it's just a happy memory

Maybe it's all the booze
But I'm happy with just the thought of you
I know we're taken
But maybe in another life
We didn't care about tomorrow
And tonight we'd go back to our little world

In the morning I'll wonder
If you think the same way
But you don't love me
And I don't love you
So at the end of the day
It's just a love song for another life.

No More

Never was good enough for us
Spent days wasing precious time facing constant disappointment

Never knew quite what my worth was
Always pacing, always shaking with rage I couldn't show

How was this love?
When you told me, "You don't deserve to cry"
How was this love?
When you can't support your lazy life.

No more, no more, no more
I've had enough

No More paying all the bills
No more driving all the time
No more tears
No more guilt
No more lies

Never listening to bullshit
All this whining, and crying over how I spend my life

Never dealing with all this guild
How i didn't love you or how I'm not trying hard enough

How is this love?
When you told me, "You don't deserve to cry"
How is this love?
When you can't support your lazy life.

No more, no more, no more
This isn't love.

Love isn't wishing for another day.
Love isn't wishing for something to change.
Love isn't tears.
Love isn't guilt.
Love isn't lies

If you love alone
than you aren't loving right
If love has you crying
Then you need a change in life

Falling from Gray

Gotta wake up somedays,
With the fog blocking your view,
Can't always see what's in front of you.

For every ending there is a start,
Because you can't see doesn't mean it's not there.
Keep on running through, keep on running through.

What do we do whe the world has gone gray
Too many questions and nothing to say
Times lacking otion and the colors start to fade
It's all becoming one shade of gray.
It's all becoming one shade of gray.

Walking on, straight as long as we can,
Sometimes we trip and aren't able to land,
Stand right back up again, stand right again.

We're weathered, injured and out of place,
Changed from what we once were.
The form never stays the same, it always changes.

What do we do when the world has gone gray
Too many questions and nothing to say
Times lacking motion and the colors start to fade
It's all becoming one shade of gray
It's all becoming...

Remember the colors
Remember to fight,
It's ok to feel this way, just don't lose sight.

Life is about living,
And living is tough,
It's ok to be down, just never give up

What do we do when the world has gone gray
We stand strong and face the day
Time will speed up, colors will replace the shade
Just need to brace the gray
Just need to brace the gray

When I Grow Up

When I grow up
I want to get a job
That requires little work
And pays a whole lot

When I was 18
I thought my parents should know
Where their little princess
Was intending to go

My Mother started crying
My daddy heaved a sigh
He handed me a dollar
And patted his thigh

Mother started drinking
To forget the days
Daddy started buying me
Some new bra's and panties
So I can become the best little stripper in town

CHORUS
I wanna dance, dance, dance, dance
On my little pole
I know exactly where I'll go
As a Stripper
All there is, is up, up, up, up
On my little pole
This is all I need to know
As a Stripper

I got a pole
For my birthday that year
I dance all day
To practice for my career

I started my first day
With a smile in tow
Doing something special
For those who's spirits are low

My parents showed up
Out of the blue
Figured I'd make them proud
And show 'em what their little girl could do.

Mother shouted desperately,
"My daughter's a Whore!"
Daddy smiled sweetly and said,
"Lookit my baby go,
She's going to be the best little stripper in town."

CHORUS
I wanna dance, dance, dance, dance
On my little pole
I know exactly where I'll go
As a Stripper
All there is, is up, up, up, up
On my little pole
This is all I need to know
As a Stripper

Mommy left daddy
And she married someone new
She bettered her life
And she was happy too

I met them for breakfast
And was happy to find
My Step Daddy was a regular
At that Strip Club of mine
He said, "Hey! You're the best little stripper in town!"


CHORUS X2
I wanna dance, dance, dance, dance
On my little pole
I know exactly where I'll go
As a Stripper
All there is, is up, up, up, up
On my little pole
This is all I need to know
As a Stripper

This is all I need to knoooooow
As a Stripper

See, Hear, Speak no Evil

I see the world in colors,
but lately all I’ve seen is flames.

Ignorance is besting,
all that common sense has claimed.

Panic is overwhelming,
even the calmest of days.

And I wonder as I wander over ashes in the fields,
If this is what humanity means then why are we still here.
Echo’s of the end of days are ringing in my ears,
And I keep thinking maybe that’s the reason why we are still here.

I am deafened by the sounds,
So much is being yelled out to the world.

Violence is an outcry,
But responsibilities are blurred.

Anger is commonplace,
In all the boys and girls.

And I ponder as I prance about in blood-soaked avenues,
If this is what God made for us, then why are we of use.
Nature is trying to end us all with sickness and abuse.
And I keep thinking maybe that is why we still have a use.

I am speaking loud and long,
But what I say is not loud enough.

Logic is not present,
It has become a Diamond in the Rough.

Greed is a poison,
And our hope for a cure is tough.

And I daydream as I dance in the ballroom made of fright,
If this is our legacy, will our children know what’s right?
I wonder if God realizes how far we’ve fallen from light,
And I keep thinking if our children will really be alright.

Whipping Boy

Whipping Boy oh Whipping Boy…
You’re not running fast enough.
The world is catching up to you
And when it does you know you will be punished.

Punished? Yes Punished!
You are the scapegoat
If you have spare moments my friend
You are not working hard enough

Enough! I say Enough!
No more slacking, no more waiting
I demand for you to be perfect
There are no excuses for failure!

Failure, you are a failure!
You’ll never be good enough
You’ll never be fast enough
Oh whipping boy, it’s a trap.

Trap, you are trapped.
No one can save you from your lot.
Stand up Whipping boy.
Stand up and fight back.

Back, you mongers go back!
He’s had enough and he’s coming around.
The Whipping Boy has learned his say.
And you will listen.

Listen to me, Listen!
Or suffer the fate of words.
When you oppress and restrict,
The Whipping Boy will come back for you.

Lament

You've circled this tower once before,
and I let down my hair,
among the books and ambiance,
you saved me.
But again I'm in this tower,
and though I've seen you circle,
there is no rescuing me tonight.
My knight you save me once
but no shining armor can reach me now
but the spell you cast was heavy
and this heart of mine is haunted
by the memory of your embrace
the soft chills from when you caressed my skin
trickle down my back still today
but please Sir Knight
I'm afraid there is no saving me this time.
so please don't taunt me
with those eyes that cannot be forgotten
though I long to see you circle this tower
it is just too tall
and I am just too afraid to fall.
Although I will despair
eventually i will fade away
I will become a distant thought
You will find a new tower
With a new princess
who longs to be saved by you.
And I'll cling to this ghost of you Sir Knight,
As I dwell in my tower
Circled no more.

A Sinners Play

Set me in a cliche and watch this story unfold.
Of course it's going to be this way.
A fitting punishment for a sinner like me.
Drifting and shifting like the plates beneath our feet.
Some tragic play for the world to see.
My own hell is to stand on this stage.
The crowd laughs at my misfortunes.
When can I get my intermission?
Cue to the curtain, silky red savior splashing down at my feet.
Now is my time to exit stage right.
I am no actor to cater to a crowd of fools.
But this is my hell.
Cue the curtain and I'm back on stage.
Playing along with these shadows of souls.
What is real and what is fabrication?
When we are all on a stage.
Dante prepared this only for me.
My own circle of hell.
A stage where I put on all the masks I've worn.
All the lies I've told are the tragedies for the world to see.
It's only fitting for a sinner like me.

The City is Sweet Symphony

watching the street exhale
concrete breathes in the sweet symphony of foul play, fake love and lost dreams.
Here we are in this city, planning on a future unknown.
"I'll be more than I was, you'll see."

But we've seen what you've become.
Nothing better than you were.
Maybe a bit older, possibly a bit smarter, most likely lesser of both,
but definately more experienced.
We've been hurt, violated, loved, forgotten, loathed..
intimidated and intimidating, and everything in between.
It's what happens when we leave the safety
of our front doors.

When our feet meet that street
there is no turning back.
Step through the smoke,
look to the beautiful bars that barricade you in.
Here is the chance you wanted.

Become something better than we were.

It's your chance to create a harmony to the symphony of the city.

Tomorrow now Today

So yesterday is another day I'd like to forget,
Because it was another day I lived without you,
Tomorrow is a day that I hope not to regret,
Though it will be another day I lived without you.
I only want today to be tomorrow
If you're there for me to hold
Tell me is tomorrow now today?
Is tomorrow now today?
This year is now over, and a new one is to begin,
But it is not my year if you aren't here with me.
And months will come and go, and the Days drag out and in
But they are days I will push away if you aren't here with me.
I only want today to be tomorrow
If you're there for me to hold
Tell me is tomorrow now today?
Is tomorrow now today?
Is tomorrow now today
Is there room enough in your heart for me?
These minutes are unbearable, Time is just to rough
If I can't share these moments with you.
The Seconds go by so quickly and Hours are so tough
If I can't have these moments with you.
Can today be tomorrow
Can you be there for me to hold
Tell me is tomorrow now today?
Please, can tomorrow be today?

December Epiphany

And so this chapter of my life I close,
Nearing the end of the year and the end of a journey.
The lessons I have learned
The feelings I have felt
The people I have met,
All these things justify the years course.
It's in parting we find truths,
It is in the 'goodbyes' we find clarity.
There are moments I will always cherish,
Embraces I will never forget,
Words that will forever linger,
And life that I will never regret.
Tomorrow will come and I will begin again
Down a road paved with hope and determination.
And I won't look back towards memories fair
Because I know I am not sad in leaving
Only happy to have left
With such great joy
In the meetings and the feelings,
In all I had there.

I Mean Nothing

I have no definition.
I'm currently undefined.
I wake up in the morning,
And I don't recognize,
The monster I see,
Staring at me from my mirror.
I only hear my concious screaming,
"What has become of the love you had for yourself?
My eyes are empty,
And all I can say in response...
Is turning my back
And letting the void get bigger.


All that fills it
Is the knowledge that I
Am an infidel in my own skin.
So roll over,
And fall asleep,
I'll mean nothing in the morning.
I'll mean nothing tomorrow.

I'll mean nothing in the morning,
And my reflection will remind me
When she looks at me with those
Sad
Empty
Eyes.

Swing

It's too cold outside,

But I need to fly.

I shouldn't even have to feel this way,

But the burdens are too heavy,

And the swing can't carry me far enough from the ground.

I need to fly,

Though the wind is cold and strong,

I can' be defeated twice in one night.

My heart aches ever so,

And feels too much to bear.

And the swing can't take me high enough.

I want to float in the air,

And throw out this pain I feel.

I wish it were easy, I wish I were strong enough,

To tell you that my unhappiness,

Can't swing anymore.

I can't swing anymore,

I can't sway between happiness and sorrow.

I can't swing anymore,

I can't stand not knowing how I will feel tomorrow.

Don't make me swing anymore,

Don't make me swing anymore.